I Want My Leg Back!

as most of you already knew, my right knee has been placed under cast due to suspected fracture. honestly, the doctors don’t seem convincing at all to me, but i really hope the injury doesn’t involve my ligament, or else i could be out longer than i expected. mc till 10 feb for now but appointment on 8 feb, hopefully nothing serious and i can get it off by then. pray for me.

using crutches is NO JOKE!, it’s fucking tough. initially i thought it was easier but when i went to school, i swear i almost died! i seriously can’t imagine if i take bus/mrt instead of cab, probably i’ll collapse halfway before i even reach school. however, the $30 cab fare in total is fuck up. which explains why tuesday was the last day that i’ll be attending school for this week. as much as i love going school, i simply can’t afford it.

so yeah, i’ve been staying home rotting and playing “dragon age: origin”. back to my hardcore gaming mode since i have nothing else better to do. non-stop 12pm to 4am with small breaks in between for the past 2 days and finally completed the game today. damn. guess i just have to start a new character and try out the different story ending.

it’s sad that i can’t even make myself food. so thankfully there was ah ni who was kind enough to bring me lunch on monday, macdonald delivery for wednesday and the just awesome nutella for today. i wonder what’s on the menu tomorrow.

and did i tell you how i spent 4 fucking hours at the polyclinic before i got referred to changi hospital. zzzz. at the hospital, they hand me a wheelchair because they could tell i had difficulty walking. it was awkward because it was my first time on a wheelchair and it was tough to navigate. funny thing was when my queue number came up, i tried to wheel myself to the consultation room since no nurse was around. i tried turning through that narrow path and actually banged the wall!! it was so EMBARASSING!! then a kind stranger came forward and offered to push me there instead. i didn’t even catch his face but thank you once again. after i got used to the wheelchair though, i swear i was like a RACER!

sitting on the wheelchair and looking at people around me on wheelchair are all old folks. is this a sign?

cast isn’t as fun or exciting as i first thought.

i got annoyed and secretly took out half my cast to check on my knee. it’s still swelling like pig trotter!

For The Love Of Soccer

seriously, i don’t know whether to laugh at myself, angry at myself or just cry. i don’t know why i was so weak but i was almost at the verge of breaking down. as always, i never listen. i was so damn foolish enough to think so highly of myself and actually declare myself fit enough to play soccer earlier on, i was DEAD WRONG.

i thought i could have a relaxing game by defending as the last man without going after the ball much. suddenly, just when i tried to jump for the ball on the air against weitong, i don’t know how but BAM!! the next i know, i was on the ground moaning in this fucking dreadful pain. i swear i never felt anything like that before. now i’m gonna miss sunday’s match again.

FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK. probably i should skip the match and not physically be there to support them so i won’t have to feel bad about myself when i see them play.

it’s really FUCK UP to injure my right knee once again. I HATE MYSELF. FUCKING RETARDED.

the thought of not being able to walk properly, fully bend or straighten my knee again is simply heart-wrenching. i never want to get injured so badly that i’ll be out from soccer for so long. and the thought of working tomorrow doesn’t help at all.

FML.

We’re Chinese And We Know Kungfu!

bad, bad, bad! school is starting to stress me out as the homework slowly stacks up. argh. i ought to start on my homework early and not be like last time, where everything is so last minute! time to pull up my grades higher!

on the bright side, my knee is recovering well as i expected. at last i can fully bend my knees with only a slight pain. i guess jazz dance lessons does aid the healing in a way. however, the new moves we learnt are fun but seriously way too feminine for guys! nevertheless, i have to endure and try to achieve a distinction again.

horse thrust style vs tiger claw style vs snake bite style

<3 Nutella Tarts

just literally ate my stomach out with chee, tong, keong and felki at some money-cheating restaurant at katong. bloody hell, almost $8 for a small plate of dish. what do they take us for?!?! next was dessert of nutella tart at “everything with fries”, i swear it’s so FUCKING HEAVENLY! but i’m afraid it is damn fattening. you might need to run 15km to burn them all. oh well, $17 gone, just like that. lol. “live to eat” is really my true motto!

earlier today, rowdees had a trial match against some random team to determine which division we will join in the upcoming league starting on march. it totally sucks to rest on the bench due to my injured knee. i could feel the ITCH to come on the pitch every now and then. nevertheless, they had my moral support and indeed they didn’t disappoint me with a victory of 4-1. WELL DONE FELLOW ROWDIANS!

anyway, parents was kind enough to buy us a new hp desktop with windows 7 cause the old one broke down! wahahaha. it’s gonna be so useful for my future gaming purposes. i also bought a laptop cooling pad which is pretty useful, since it elevates my laptop higher so i can type with ease, as well as a cooling fan to prevent my laptop from overheating.

so not used to such a huge screen.

look pretty cool eh.

saosin full length concert at KL on 1st february! however i think i’ll pass since i’m way over budget. HOW SAD! anyone wants to pay for me? please….

now, i’m stuck at home with a few homework yet to be complete. as usual, i’m feeling LAZY! probably i will start tomorrow instead after work at 10pm, but will i have enough time to finish that 8 typography design? hmmm……

lastly, i just shaved off my facial hair which i kept for a week now cause i guess i was looking too much of an old man.

Our Hearts Could Be Warmer

all thanks to soccer on tuesday night, intense warm up during jazz dance on wednesday, and a knock against albert’s leg on thursday night soccer was enough to give a huge blow to my right knee. it was so busted i could hardly walk home after that. i was so afraid i wouldn’t be able to play the match this sunday but thank god it got postponed to next week.

that night, i could still withstand the pain on the joint of my right knee. thanks to my bro whose had a fruitful experience of past knee injury, gave me some advices and handed me his knee guard together with the cold compression equipment. it felt so good on my knee though it kinda gets pretty numb at a point of time but falling asleep wasn’t that hard.

they saved my right knee that night.

on friday, it got really worse once i woke up. i could barely get myself out of bed! i admit i was feeling rather paranoid, when i kept imagining i’ll be out of soccer for months. i actually suspect i might have broken or fractured my bone. after much hesitation, i decide to give the clinic a visit in case i was right . i swear i was having so much trouble walking there even though it’s less than 200m away. i walked like a fucking crippled and everyone was staring. zzzz.

to my surprise, the doctor applied pressure here and there on my joint but there wasn’t even a single terrible pain. so he concluded that it wasn’t such a serious injury and it might just be a traumatic impact on my knee which resulted the swelling and why i felt pain when i bend/straighten my knee. i was so glad it was nothing, and thank god i saved money by not going the hospital instead. due to the injury, i was stuck home the entire day and had to give NAFA open house a miss. it was so boring when i only have online shows to accompany me.

by today, my knee felt even better, much much better. i could walk with ease plus a slight awkwardness, as if my other leg was longer than the other. anyway i manage to survive through work just now and here i am, home again. some shitty stuff happened at work and i don’t wanna talk about it. in a way, i feel like changing job. not because of the incident, but more of changing new environment and trying out new things. i shall think hard about it.

Our Stars Could Be Brighter

after weeks of school holiday, which i was mostly busy working anyway, school has finally began. honestly, i didn’t quite look forward to it cause somehow, i felt i lost touch. haha. oh well, now that the first week is already over, i guess i’m getting my magic touch back. supposed to have class tomorrow but thanks to NAFA open house, it was cancelled. however, i’m wondering if i should just head to school to check out the open house, if not i’ll be rotting at home anyway. hmm.. anyone wants to join me?

some updates over the past weekends.

last saturday night after work, went for a small catch up sessions with the usuals at cc mac. as well as a birthday surprise at felki’s place after much preparation and running. lol. we got her good.

sunday was back to work again, but only 4 hours in the day before i went to meet the sorianos plus keong and aisyah. it was a birthday celebration for felki at funan’s minds cafe. we had our shares of food, fun and laughter. we play roughly 2 hours of INTENSE gaming and then it was left with keong, felki, fiona, aisyah and me. we then made our way for dinner. couldn’t decide what to do, so we walked aimlessly around city hall area where we took tons of interesting photos. after much wastage of camera battery and films, we finally called it a day. home sweet home by 11pm.

makes me feel like buying a polaroid camera for myself.

monday was a no school day since the lesson is only every alternate week. but i had to go back to the cathay to meet the rest of the classmates where we celebrated putri’s 20th birthday at aston’s. and you know what, i was so full of spirit that day cause i was thinking we could have other fun programs after the celebration, but i suddenly remembered that i actually i have work at 5.45pm. FML. still, i manage to squeeze in a movie of  “old dogs” again before i rush back to work.

we like it from behind.

and the front as well.

no, we’re not GAYS!

they call me retarded.

happy 20th putri! and stop living in denial. you’re not 18 anymore!

Everyone’s Getting Married!

congratulations to my cousin, joey, for his wedding last sunday!

he called me 12am the night before to inform me that i have to open his wedding car door in the morning. just when i thought i was gonna attend the wedding dinner at night only. how last minute, but i did managed to drag myself awake to reach his place by 9am with my parents. first time in my life i’m opening wedding car door and it made me think, “aren’t i too old for that?” haha. but i guess there wasn’t anyone else already, since i am the paternal side only youngest male. anyway i can’t complain, since there’s ‘free’ red packet to receive! an easy $50 made that day. hehe.

wedding dinner was held at a restaurant in expo with a total of 80+ tables. hoho. i simply love most of the dishes. hopefully i get to attend more weddings this year. oh ya, and now the relatives are starting to ask when’s the siew brothers’ turn.

3 words, WAIT LONG LONG.

i don’t know why but i look real weird here.

the paternal gang!

at the wedding dinner, i met my old ite classmate, yati, who happens to be joey’s classmate in tp.

this was taken a couple months back when joey’s elder sister, sally, had her wedding dinner at bukit batok.

and now, i just got back home from clementi after sending jessica home. before that we were at town shopping for my clothes and watching “old dogs” at cineleisure, which is indeed a very hilarious show! it’s a wonderful night spent. =)

well, there’s still work early tomorrow and therefore, i better turn in soon! good night folks!

Welcoming 2010

i welcomed 2010 in a club called ‘yello jello’ at clark quay with fai, toby, nizam, mathew, jon, fiona and jodie. before that we had our dinner at suntec’s ‘fish n co’ before squeezing our way through the crazy crowd towards cannery. our last stop was rebel where most of us danced our way till 2+am before calling it a day. cab was so hard to find after that, but we were eventually lucky enough to book one. please remind me again not to come out on new year’s eve ever again because it’s a FUCKING GRINDFEST everywhere! and on top of that, i spent almost $100+ alone that day. DAMN.

pure heavenly indulgence! seafood platter for two!

zhenfai with his usual ‘kiam pa’ faggot face.

toby with his ever-so-stylish-and-unique fashion.

couple for the night.

well, thinking back, if you asked me whether 2009 was a fantastic year for me, i honestly can’t decide. however, i believe there were more downs than ups which kinda makes it more bad than good huh. nevertheless, i guess i managed to survive through it.

so here you go, i am gonna list down the more significant things that means a lot to me regarding 2009.

1. the heartbreak i never wanted to, although i’m really glad to see you’re happily attached now. my blessings to you.

2. rowdees; the same old huge gang of misfits. of course we were split in our occasional separate group when it comes to small outing which i totally understand as much as i dread about it. i still hope we stay the same way, especially our usual friday night soccer and the sunday soccer matches. CNY is coming and we shall meet up all as one again soon! double thanks to the usuals! you know who you are, but don’t expect a treat. lol.

3. the group of awesome friends i’ve met, too many to list. my new classmates of 2B whom made my birthday in 2009 definitely a memorable one, and all the mind-blasting fun outing that made me jizz in my pants. more to cum! opps, i meant come. jeanie the bff whom have been my main source of entertainment. not forgetting the clique of toby, jodie, reon and more who have been there for me all these time. my bitch, chan zhi xiang who has been a loyalty dog. hahaha. if i missed anyone out, i definitely didn’t forget you. so thank you all! it’s an honor to have known you people. <3

4. being a ticketing cashier at century cineplex, which is my first ever part-time job that i held for the longest time. 17 months and counting.

5. i also manage to quit gaming. I HAVE A LIFE NOW! hahaha.

i hope everyone had a wonderful 2009 to think back in the future. i still can’t think of any resolutions for this new year.

When You Spend More Than You Earn

work today was fucking busy as usual, especially this school holiday. somehow it became chaotic in the afternoon when there was a sudden blackout which affect the 3 halls upstairs. all 3 halls were either full or almost full house at that time. in a flash, the shitload of crowd transformed into a crazy mob. we were literally struggling. we had to apologize and refund most of the customers. not forgetting some nasty customers who wanted more than just refunds. _|_ as expected, couple of mistakes made here and there which explain why my sales weren’t tally at the end of my shift. short of $46! wtf. not again.

the other day like 2 days ago, i also short money in my sales. but i actually knew where the money went, i remembered i was blur enough to give a customer extra change of $30. and the customer happily took my change without saying anything. knnbccb! fucking dishonest singaporean! hope you rot in hell. by the time i realized, it was too late. well, i can’t be paying back the company more than what i earn right. fuck. such bad luck these days, not even a chance of striking 4D today with the lucky numbers i bought the usuals. argh. FML.

it’s new year’s eve tomorrow and i’ll be working in the day. night time should be hanging with the cliques at marina or somewhere there. though it’s expected to be fucking crowded. this calls for a GRINDFEST!! hahaha.

i still can’t believe 2010 is so near.

new year resolutions? don’t think i even have them.

15 Years Ago

the other day i went to visit my great-grand mother after so long. we talked about the good old past when she was taking real good care of my brother and me. as well as what’s been happening in the house lately which i wasn’t quite pleased to hear. however, like my mom said, she’s old already and tend to overreact to situations. i sure hope she’s right. at some point of time, i don’t know why, but i can almost feel my tears rolling. i owe her so much.

and it’s funny how after i talked to her for an hour before she realised that i’m actually ah yi. all along she thought i was ah zhi, my brother. LOL. we had a pretty good laugh about it. though it’s quite sad, to think that she couldn’t recognize me at all when i am her favorite grandchild. but i don’t blame her, as she’s getting real old and has only a vision of one eye.

i truly have to brush up on my hokkien cause i was having so much trouble communicating with her. most of the time i didn’t understand what she was saying and i could only entertain with a reply of ‘orh’, ‘ya lor’ or ‘ha nor’. there’s also so many things i wanna tell her from my heart but i couldn’t even remember or find the words.

i shall speak better the next time i visit her!