When You Spend More Than You Earn

work today was fucking busy as usual, especially this school holiday. somehow it became chaotic in the afternoon when there was a sudden blackout which affect the 3 halls upstairs. all 3 halls were either full or almost full house at that time. in a flash, the shitload of crowd transformed into a crazy mob. we were literally struggling. we had to apologize and refund most of the customers. not forgetting some nasty customers who wanted more than just refunds. _|_ as expected, couple of mistakes made here and there which explain why my sales weren’t tally at the end of my shift. short of $46! wtf. not again.

the other day like 2 days ago, i also short money in my sales. but i actually knew where the money went, i remembered i was blur enough to give a customer extra change of $30. and the customer happily took my change without saying anything. knnbccb! fucking dishonest singaporean! hope you rot in hell. by the time i realized, it was too late. well, i can’t be paying back the company more than what i earn right. fuck. such bad luck these days, not even a chance of striking 4D today with the lucky numbers i bought the usuals. argh. FML.

it’s new year’s eve tomorrow and i’ll be working in the day. night time should be hanging with the cliques at marina or somewhere there. though it’s expected to be fucking crowded. this calls for a GRINDFEST!! hahaha.

i still can’t believe 2010 is so near.

new year resolutions? don’t think i even have them.

15 Years Ago

the other day i went to visit my great-grand mother after so long. we talked about the good old past when she was taking real good care of my brother and me. as well as what’s been happening in the house lately which i wasn’t quite pleased to hear. however, like my mom said, she’s old already and tend to overreact to situations. i sure hope she’s right. at some point of time, i don’t know why, but i can almost feel my tears rolling. i owe her so much.

and it’s funny how after i talked to her for an hour before she realised that i’m actually ah yi. all along she thought i was ah zhi, my brother. LOL. we had a pretty good laugh about it. though it’s quite sad, to think that she couldn’t recognize me at all when i am her favorite grandchild. but i don’t blame her, as she’s getting real old and has only a vision of one eye.

i truly have to brush up on my hokkien cause i was having so much trouble communicating with her. most of the time i didn’t understand what she was saying and i could only entertain with a reply of ‘orh’, ‘ya lor’ or ‘ha nor’. there’s also so many things i wanna tell her from my heart but i couldn’t even remember or find the words.

i shall speak better the next time i visit her!

Sleepless Nights At Its Worse

i was suppose to play soccer now. but after i reached the basketball, wore my street soccer shoes and waited for the ball to arrive, i realised i couldn’t take it anymore. i gave up, i was simply too dead beat and my eyes were at the brink of closing. so i took off my shoes again and head home straight to rest. stupid right, i know. mainly because i plan to save my energy for work tomorrow morning and the outing after with the usuals. bottom line, i blame my lack of proper rest to the 2 cans of red bull before bed yesterday or was it my dry cough/sore throat. either way, i was totally sleepless! never experience such a serious sleepless night in my entire life before. i usually have no problem falling asleep. fucking hell i was literally tossing and turning non-stop for few hours trying to sleep in vain. that feeling sucks big time!

okay time’s up. good night world!

Your Heart’s Hidden Strength

recently watched 2 movies with family. first was ‘avatar’, which is really FUCKING AWESOME!! a must-watch for all movie goers. i’m so gonna watch the 3D version soon. ‘bodyguards & assassin’ was the other one. to me, it was just an average draggy show, not as good the hype nor my expectation.

lately, i’ve been watching way too many shows online. mainly because i have officially cancelled my aion’s subscription as of last week. somehow i was getting pretty bored of it, too much grinding and it’s still not as good as WoW. lots of room for improvement. hmm.. maybe this means its time i’ve finally grew out of gaming? i certainly hope so. it can save me $22 every month. on second thought, new patch in WoW seems tempting too, but i believe i might only touch it when the new expansion comes out. we shall see. now i’ll just keep myself busy playing borderland on my ps3.

busy working, working and working non-stop for the past few weeks as though i have no life at all. then again, my december pay is gonna be so DAMN THICK!! wahaha. however, i’m told to work on christmas’ eve and christmas day itself! argh fuck. i hope i’m able to get off on saturday instead as a form of compensation. lol. and i’m so not gonna work on new year’s eve if they tell me to! since they already employed quite a number of new staff, i’m sure they won’t suffer without me.

the other day when i was out at town with toby, mathew, jodie and liwei, we stumbled onto this really interesting book out of all the tons of fantastic books at borders. it’s titled “how to spot a virgin in the crowd”.

i bet you’re as curious as us to wonder what is actually inside that content right!

but too bad, every pages is blank! and it freaking cost $10.70. WTF. who would actually be dumb enough to buy it?

i guess it’s true, there’s no such things as being able to spot a virgin in the crowd. can you?

Silent Panther

after wasting half my saturday away waiting for the god damn SAF to activate us, but no, nothing! which mean i actually took off from work for nothing! okay maybe it’s not exactly that fruitless, cause i did end up meeting tong and suet before heading to orchard to find chee, clar and her friends. we had dinner at far east’s wasabi-tei, shop for christmas’ gift and midnight movie of ‘couples retreat’ at cineleisure. however, tong and suet didn’t join us for the movie. cabbed home next.

just when i slept at 5am, expecting the mobilisation to be in the afternoon or none at all since it’s a sunday. but well well, my predictions were all dreadfully wrong. i should have known better. my bitch, chan zhixiang called me as early as 7am informing me to standby cause we’re gonna get activated, FOR REAL! what’s missing is only waiting for the official notification. as much as i don’t trust most of his bullshit, i suppose this kind of thing he won’t dare to play punk. lol. since it’s still early, i tried getting some more sleep but couldn’t, so i tried calling my driver, chiam weili to pre-warn him. but guess what, that PU BOR never picked up all 30 calls from me and end up having his handphone switched off! no choice but to ask my sergeant call his place and next-of-kin but still no news of him.

i couldn’t care less and head straight to pasir ris camp first with some of the advance party by 9.30am, even though i’m from the main body and have a 2 hour reporting time difference, but what the hell, i just wanted to get it over and done it. eventually, i was official notified when i was on my way there. plus my colleague from the cinema, also called and informed me about the mobilisation in case i didn’t knew. our call sign, silent panther, was flashing all over the television, radio, cinema and media everywhere.

from then on, there was only left with reporting, inspecting our field pack and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting….. all these waiting that costed me almost 5 hours of precious sunday. seriously, i regret reporting so early when i still have to wait for the awful late comers, no more next time! especially PU BOR chiam weili! whom we finally reached, by calling his work place, cafe del mar to look for him. indeed my predictions were finally right, he was knockout-ed at zoukout the night before. therefore, almost half the battalion left already while we were still there waiting for his sorry ass before we could be dismissed. thanks ah chiam! he still dare to say we were too early. FUCK YOU!! haha. by 3pm, we were out of pasir ris camp. lunch at tampines’ swensen’s with the tankees and co. before i rushed home to change and head straight to work. i swear i was almost dozing off at work.

bottom line, mobilisation is no fucking fun at all but it was great catching up with the cheetahs once again. and how i used to think that the green man flashing on television was so awesome, i changed my mind now. so yeah, now i’m home and i guess i might knockout any moment now. zzzZZZZ. okay maybe after liverpool vs arsenal match.

Nothing More

you’re graceful, your grace falls, down around me in eyes.

you’re lovely, your love leaves, so easily in my eyes.

What Is This I’m Feeling?

after much anticipation, our assessment results are finally out.

i won’t say i’m upset, nor am i happy about it. it’s nothing to be proud of, really. deep inside, i was expecting something better since i thought i had work pretty hard this semester. i was wrong. okay maybe it’s only my attendance which truly improved, cause i know i am still lazy and last minute when it comes to assignments or projects. nevertheless, i believed i tried my best and i guess i should be satisfied with it no matter what. time to work even harder next semester! (this was exactly what i said last semester, or perhaps every semester).

oh well, at least i got my first A. not just 1 but 2, and it came from sas: arts management which was totally unexpected and jazz dance! lol. looks like there’s a high chance that i’m gonna retake jazz dance again next semester. it’s just too good to miss, since you get to keep fit and achieve A pretty easily. why not? come join me people!

on a side note, bff got her entire bag stolen at work, so basically everything’s gone except her handphone. poor thing. i hope that fucking culprit gets his karma back sevenfold. and certainly hope some kind soul will return her bag if it was ever found. in the mean time, cheer up and smile, girl. =)

Got The Point That I Should Leave You Alone

so yeah, i didn’t managed to skip work last saturday. i guess money is my first priority for now, since i’m pretty much broke like fuck even when i just got my pay that day. my debt is never ending, i blame the credit card. fuck it, i ought to terminate it soon. it’s a damn bad habit to keep using it. argh.

anyway, hock just got back from australia on saturday night. welcome back! as a celebration, rowdees and a few kukus held a dinner for him earlier today at bedok 85. we order the usual authentic singaporean food that he misses. minced pork noodles, bbq chicken, bbq stingray, oyster omelette, rice dumpling and krispy kreme donuts which he brought back. omfg, it was pure heavenly. thank god for soccer after that, since hock misses it as well. at least i killed off some of the fats. phew.

well, today marks monday,which means i’m gonna work for the whole of this week except friday. no life but no choice. i need to start earning more money! find a better part-time job? or work 2 jobs at one go. hmm….

Senget The Role Model?

today was a pretty eye opener for me, experience gained and level up! all because i helped miss jeanie tay hui kee and her ex-colleagues, which is a child-care centre to follow them to jurong bird park in the morning to look after the kids. main role is to bring the boys to the toilet as i was one of the rare males there.

it’s the first time i ever had such close contact with young children i didn’t knew and of course i took off my piercings although some bright ones still managed to spot it. i have to set a good example right. at first, most were keeping a distance from me, but can’t blame them since i’m a complete stranger to them but thank god they got warmed up soon after. throughout the entire trip, i felt like a real teacher? especially when one of them held my hand when we had to walk through the world of darkness, which is basically a very dark enclosure for owl. somehow, it warms my heart, to know i was there for someone. i have to admit, deep inside me, i kinda like it especially when hanging around with the kids. probably i should give teaching a shot, if i could. hahaha.

seeing how much fun and noise the kids made, as well as being lectured and disciplined. i can’t help but wonder how i was back then. cause honestly, i can’t remember much of my childhood memories at all. i wish i knew how naughty or good i was. hmm… from what i remembered, i think i was pretty quiet. i don’t even have photos.

during the trip, i tried my best to use whatever tricks i used on my young cousins before on the new kids to try to make them talk to me. apparently it still works pretty okay, since i was once a great role model to my cousins okay. like i said, ONCE. haha. and no, i didn’t ‘pian xiao mei mei’!

apart for a bit of drizzling, the whole trip was awesome! i met new people, like the teachers and especially the kids, whom are so adorable. as well as the sight-seeing at jurong bird park since the last time i went there was a decades ago. overall, i had tons of fun and i truly enjoyed myself. thanks for having me people, and of course thanks to the invite from bff. how i wish i had taken photos with the kids as a memory.

photos will be up soon, once i get hold of them.

after the trip, hanged around at the child-care centre for awhile before heading to nearby north point for a quick dinner of macdonald’s and movie of “case 39″. quite a scary show, though i didn’t really freak out much, i swear! cause it didn’t really shock the shit out of me. next was sending miss jeanie home and then i got home to change for routine friday night soccer which i have been missing for a long time now.

well, here i am, back from soccer and my leg’s aching after all that walking, running and kicking today. call me weak, i don’t care.

worse of all, right now, i’m in a dilemma. i can’t decide whether to fake an MC tomorrow to skip work! mainly because zhenfai is finally back from his MIA/exam period and is asking us for fine dining and movie. i’m really keen on joining them, BUT, i’m on a serious tight budget now, plus i’ve been rejecting to work for 2 days already this week. so i’m gonna feel so bad if i skip. not forgetting next saturday’s high chance of army mobilization which most likely i might have to take off AGAIN. HOW!?!?! friends or work? money or broke? ARGH. FUCK THIS SHIT!

Same Shit, Different Day

december is coming, which means christmas! FEASTING!! wahahaha.

i seriously hope i get to go for a holiday real soon. maybe genting with the usuals? but all couple couple plus no money! and my parents mentioned about going bangkok during chinese new year. hoho. we shall see! as it’s been awhile since i leave singapore for a actual holiday, not counting the army overseas training.

i feel so dull this holiday as it has been pretty dead boring. everyday it’s either gaming, sleeping or working. not forgetting i’ve been working as usher for the first time cause the other uncle is sick and will be resigning, and guess what, my manager will be resigning too by end of december. so much politics and conflict, i just hope the new manager will be better. though i predict i might leave century cineplex when i get to year 3 in NAFA since i have to go for internship at that time. oh well.

will be playing l4d2 tomorrow with a few of the classmates. honestly, i’m rather lazy and budget, but what the hell. guess i’ll just entertain myself awhile before working tomorrow. yawn.