Hopeless But Hoping

Fix Me

senget — Mon, 04 Apr 2011 19:22:06 +0000

fix me.

can you fix me?

i’ve been waiting so long to feel this heartbeat.

Kick Start My Life!

senget — Sat, 26 Mar 2011 17:51:58 +0000

remember the lucky numbers from the $60k cab fare on the previous post? i actually strike consolation last sunday, a pathetic $60 but better than nothing i guess! and i scored a sad C- for my FYP stage 2. i so need to buck up!

GOOD NEWS, my physiotherapist has already delcared that i can go back to playing soccer! even though its only “light” soccer cause its advisable i don’t push myself too much. it still made my day. i really can’t believe it’s been 8 months since my knee reconstruction operation. i’ve been waiting for this day for too long. far too long. i can’t wait to get my fitness back first before playing more aggressive field soccer with rowdees in the ESPZEN league. feel as if i have woken up from a long terrible dream.

to top it off, mom and bro was at malaysia earlier today so they manage to buy new kicks for me as my old one was already destroyed long ago as much as i can remember. i still need a pair of new soccer boots soon.

new adidas F50. how bright can it get?

FYP Stage 2

senget — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 06:06:05 +0000

i’m so glad FYP stage 2 is over for now. as usual, the last minute rushing isn’t funny, i only had a couple of hours of sleep. oh well, that’s what we get for being designers in the first place. still, there’s so much i need to touch up on as the review from the lecturers aren’t fantastic at all. i just hope i can get at least a C+ minimum?

lately, i don’t know why. but i’ve been clubbing way too much! it’s bad! mostly because i am fucking broke. too much debts on hand, i wish i could strike 4D. hopefully the lucky numbers i got from the $60k cab fare can grant me so wealth this weekend. fingers crossed.

on a side note, life is still pretty mundane for now. but its all i could have wished for. with the unusuals by my side all these while and not forgetting my 3B classmates and sista XL plus gang. at least now i have more plans than before. however, something is still missing. that lingering feeling.

okay, better buy my 4D now before i forget!

in the mean time, here’s some photo update.

korean bbq the other time with alex, sean, josh, aisyah, grace, clar and hy at 2D1N Soju Bang.

pedal carting at west coast park with alex, josh, jeanie and elena.

mini primary 6 class gathering at timbre last wed.

2 rounds of dinner and dessert last night with the unusuals.

Where Did You Go?

senget — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 16:05:05 +0000

at the moment, life is looking grey. i don’t know why.

i’ve been stoning for far too much, far too long.

i ought to resume on my FYP and other assignments but i am just so fucking lazy.

where did my inspiration go?

where did my motivation go?

and where did you go?

Only One Who Can Keep Me Alive

senget — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 17:41:48 +0000

The night has come again,
And still, I am alone-
This time more than ever.
A feeling I had never felt before
And I don’t want to remember.
It’s taking a hold of me now
You drove in town to see me,
But you turned into a messenger
Oh, with news I never thought would hit my ears.
It’s now numbing me inside
(?) me from this life and I,
Want so badly to disappear.

Maybe someday I can stand again.
Maybe soon, I can learn to wash my hands of this and start anew.
But I need you now to mend my heart
Because you’re the only one that can keep me alive tonight. (tonight [x5])

You’re everything to me:
My whole world, entire being,
The one thing I hold true in my life.
What made you do this to me?
Did you want me to set you free?
It tears me up inside, every night.

Maybe someday I can stand again.
Maybe soon, I can learn to wash my hands of this and start anew.
But I need you now to mend my heart
Because you’re the only one who can keep me alive tonight.

And everything will be just fine.
(I just wanted to be perfect, I just wanted to be perfect)
And everything will be just fine.
(I just wanted to be perfect, I just wanted to be perfect)

Maybe someday I can stand again. (and everything will be just fine)
Maybe soon, I can learn to wash my hands of this and start anew.
But I need you now to mend my heart (and everything will be just fine)
Because you’re the only one that can keep me alive tonight.

FYP Stage 1

senget — Tue, 25 Jan 2011 17:19:06 +0000

like a tumor off my brain, FYP stage 1 evaluation is over! not to forget we waited HOURS for our turn to present to the lecturers, but oh well, i guess we are just glad that it’s done. sadly, i didn’t think i did well for it as my art direction is still somewhat raw as commented by the lecturers. damn. this 20% is gonna hurt. i need to buck up!

for your information, my FYP topic is X-mini capsule speakers. to think of it now, i have a feeling it is not gonna be easy to execute. why did i choose this topic in the first place! argh.

at the moment, life seems mundane. everyday is just the same old routine. somehow i don’t look forward to school as i usually do. pfft. i. need. to. stop. whining.

on the bright side, i’m looking forward to working as backstage assistant for laneway festival this saturday. however i initially need to sacrifice 2 school days (thursday and friday) to set up the event. but luckily, friday’s lesson has been cancelled! so missing 1 day of school maybe ain’t that bad since i’m being paid $360 for the entire event plus free converse chuck taylor low cut shoe! hohoho.

i dread FYP.

It’s Been A Long and Strange Journey

senget — Tue, 11 Jan 2011 14:57:37 +0000

so much had happened since transiting into 2011.

1) i managed to secure an internship with creo adworld together with sean and clar. the 6 weeks spent there has been fruitful and a totally different experience from what i had expected. can’t believe its over already, just like that. if i have the chance, i’d definitely go back there after graduation. there’s still D&D this friday which we have to attend since they already reserved our seats. but i don’t a suit ready for the theme. argh.

2) celebrated rowdees 10 years anniversary. it has been a great one even though its sad to see most of us are split into our own clique now. i just hope we continue to stay and play soccer in more decades to come. and i can’t wait to get back on my feet and kick some balls once again.

3) i was in a relationship, and out again. what a whirlwind romance.

4) i am back to WoW-ing again, thanks to sean and the 10 days cataclysm trial, i’m hooked again. it was a mistake to begin with, but i reckon it won’t last long after i’m sick of it.

5) it’s 2011 already and it was fun counting down with the unusuals. what will i do without them? i hope it’s gonna be a wonderful year ahead.

6) school has already started and i am definitely not prepared for FYP at all. this coming months will be fucking stressful. probably its a good time to say FML first. i just want to graduate, fast.

that’s all the updates i have now.

will be back for more.

peace.

Broke But Not Broken

senget — Wed, 10 Nov 2010 18:24:30 +0000

oh yeah! ISP is almost over! just left with the freaking presentation tomorrow. even after so long, i’m still nervous about it. when can i ever speak well when nervous. argh.

on a side note, i hope i get the internship at alchemy partnership which i just went for interview today at one commonwealth. apparently the verdict will only be out on friday. /fingerscrossed. just let me be colleagues with grace and alex if possible. or else i’d have to resort to working at amore fitness in-house design, recommended by my lecturer. in other words, there will be no holiday for me this semester due to the internship. not forgetting i’d have to stop working at artichoke cafe & bar for awhile. i’m gonna be so fucking broke from now on.

here’s a peek at my ISP this semester, it’s about playstation move: total immersion, virtual reality.

electronic direct mailer as first point of contact to existing users.

magazine ad one, “rome warrior”.

“army soldier”.

“boxer”.

credits to alex yeo, aisyah’s cousin and brother, my cousin, my brother and my mother for making it possible.

The End Is Just The Beginning, Of Another End

senget — Sun, 24 Oct 2010 12:27:16 +0000

i still can’t believe the crazy weeks of assignments has ended. it was such a sprint to the end, i could barely catch up. thank god all of us manager to complete everything by the last day, even though most of our work are gonna be shitty. well, better than nothing right.

nevertheless, ISP has started and the first week is almost over, just like that. of course, like i mentioned before, after all those assignments within such a short period, just what is ISP anymore? but sad to say, i haven’t even decide on which brand i’m gonna work on! argh. i seriously need to settle down on something soon or else i’m getting nowhere. i am just spoiled with too many choices.

here’s a glimpse of my shitty ad campaign for nation cancer centre singapore and marriage central.

“things you do out of love”, credits to keong and felki for being my hard-earned models.

“early detection saves lives”, damn last minute work which i can’t be bothered.

3Weeks6Briefs.com

senget — Mon, 20 Sep 2010 16:20:22 +0000

it’s gonna be one hell of a week ahead!

the start of our individual assignments!

the braincells massacre!

it doesn’t make sense that last year, we had a few weeks to complete 1, just 1 assignment as a GROUP.

but now? with the same time frame, we have 6, i repeat, 6 INDIVIDUAL assignments!!

how the fuck are we suppose to cope?!

before ISP even commerce, i think i’m dead.

just kill me already.